Good night.

'Good night, my heart.'

'Always have a sweet dream...'

She hope that her heart will never falls again.

She's going insane.

hey, i'm currently thinking of doing something bad. what to do? (-__-)

What is it you want to do? Depends on the situation and the stuff you want to do I might or might not support you~

Steal someone's bf...

NO. A BIG RED CAPITAL LETTER NO. Wait, it's that heartbreaker guy? I TOLD YOU TO JUST FORGET THAT DAMN GUY ALREADY!!! D:<

yeah, it's that heart breaker guy. he's not damn, he's nice. i've been trying hard to forget but i can't. the more i want to forget, the more it comes to me. *sigh*

I KNEW IT!!!! And who cares if he's nice or what? I don't know him duh. Seriously...are you out of your mind? You're a rational person (most of the time that is) and kind too..I don't think you actually have it in you to break other people's relationships..unless the couple are not doing good by themselves than it might be a different story altogether. Are they fighting or something? Do you actually know the girl?

No. They r good. I dunno his girl. And I didn't do anything yet, just thinking. Yeah I know that's wrong, really. I think I have to go somewhere far from this town for self-reflection... ='(

DON'T YOU EVEN DARE THINKING ABOUT IT!!!! *sigh* Don't push yourself too hard..it must be hard because you must have really like the heartbreaker (Tsk.) so really..take your time. Don't think about it that often and try look at things in a ...different angle. Hell, you're smarter than me you must know how to do stuffs duh! I'm always here whenever you want to talk. You know that damn right.

Yeah, she's going insane. 

A song for him.

'He is beautiful, for me.'

'I love the way he indulge himself in his hobby.'

'I love his silence.'

'I love his cool face.'

'I love his round eyes.'

Yet, knowing that he already loves somebody else, she feels weirdly lonely, and far from him.

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She don't want to create any problem.

So she will let her feelings for him sleep inside her small place called heart.

She have found some ways to make her heart feel content.

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It is sunny Thursday.

Yet the air is cold.

The sand storm that approaches last week has already disappeared.

She don't have anything to do. 

She keeps thinking about that person.

"Huh.." *sighing*

She takes the guitar near the wall.

She sits, close her eyes, thinking for the chord, and start to play a song...

Falling.

'I saw myself falling...'

'I hope for somebody to try to catch me, but here I see myself kept falling.'

Heart falls.

She can't find a way to change.

It's because she cannot hear her own heart.

Her heart fell into a place somewhere very deep, cold, and darker than black.

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She found something that turns her heart down.

Her tears fall again and again.

'Maybe start from this point, I will never let my heart yearning from something anymore.'

It is because she will never get what her heart wants.

'Now i don't find any reason for me to move on.'

'Let me stay like this until there is a time that someone will pick me up to move on.'

Who Knows.

'How do you feel, of having every person you love, loving somebody else?'

It's hard to pretend that she's alright.

'You should have seen through me. You already got the chances for a few times.'

She exposed herself too much, yet the person still don't understand her.

"Loving a person doesn't mean that you have to live with her/him."


'I'm stupid. For not being able to express my feelings.'

She wants to take some sleep now.

Her sleeping time also being disturbed sometimes.

Still, she waits for the email reply from him.

How much she missed him, who knows...